April 10, 2013
Good morning family. I thank God for waking me today and for guiding me back to the rooms of Narcotics Anonymous.
Wow is all I can say. I made my first meeting last night since being back and I am so happy that I did. I saw all the new friends that I made and was welcomed back. People were actually glad to see me. They all were wondering how I was and told me they missed me.
At first I debated whether or not to tell everyone because my addiction wanted me to be dishonest but I took the burning desire and let the group know that I relapsed. I had to tell on myself. I had to get honest and let my disease know that I am tired of living the lies and it felt great to do so. I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders.
After the meeting fellowshiping outside with some of the members made me realize how much I missed my meetings and how important they are to my survival. I am truly grateful that God guided me back to NA. It felt like I came home and I know that’s exactly what it is. I am home and must remember that. NA is my home now and I cannot survive without it. Making meetings has to and will once again become my priority.
I feel amazingly great this morning and I know that its God’s will for me to continue living the NA way of life. Thanks to God my higher power, NA and the people in the fellowship I once again feel the power to be able to do this. I will keep this feeling alive by continuing to stay connected.
Thanks for allowing me to share.
Peace and blessings.