April 11, 2013
Good morning family. I thank God for waking me today clean. I am feeling grateful today for being back amongst the living.
I went to my Wednesday night Brooklyn meeting last night and saw some more of my new friends who I’ve met in this wonderful fellowship of NA. I shared about my relapse after being welcomed back by so many. It was a wonderful feeling being able to share and get in touch with my feelings. I cried and felt even more of that heavy load being lifted off my shoulders.
Once again it felt like coming home and it makes me wonder how I could ever have left in the first place. I talked about my fears. One of which is letting people get close to me. I told them how this relapse was the most scary relapse I ever experienced and how cold people are now. I cried the cry of gratitude for being back and I truly mean it. I am ever so grateful to be back with the people who really understand what I have been through and don’t judge me but embrace me and tell me its gonna be ok.
It amazes me how much love there is in Narcotics Anonymous and I know for a fact that I am right where I need to be. I feel like I have been given a new lease on life. I will be alright. I believe that. I have never experienced love like this before and I will embrace it and take it all in until I can learn to love myself and others the same way.
I LOVE NA.
And as long as I follow this way I have nothing to fear. I will allow myself to learn how to live the NA WAY. I know it takes time and I will practice living and loving people the same way they love me.
This is my process, my ups, my downs, my experiences, my blog, my life and I share it with you.
Thanks for letting me to share.
Peace and Blessings.
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