THANKFUL


Hello and God bless you.

Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I am thankful. Not for the reasons the average person is thankful but for recovery. I am so grateful to God for his mercy. I am living clean, I have a family and I have an extended family in recovery.

I love my family even though for years I didn’t show it. Due to my addiction I have done some things like stealing from them, fighting with them and being distant from them. Usually around this time of the year I would be high out of my mind and not thinking about my family. I wouldn’t call or go to be with them for the holidays. (or any other time of the year keeping it real.)

This year its different. I woke up feeling very thankful that I am alive and clean. I sent text messages to friends and family and I called my mom and aunt. I stayed on the phone for a long time too. I usually don’t like to but I did. I have to get used to talking to people on the phone. It’s one of the tools of recovery. I will work on that.

I went to a holiday marathon meeting and shared my thankfulness. I am grateful to the fellowship of NA for having meetings on holidays because they can be pretty scary and lonely sometimes. My family did not get together yesterday so the marathon meeting was a blessing. I will be with them for Christmas and I will also make a marathon meeting then too.

I am feeling really blessed to still be alive and I will not take it for granted anymore. Life is short and I have wasted enough of my life using. Today starts a new beginning, a new way of living. I will be thankful for all the blessings I have received and will receive.

Thank you for being on this journey with me.

Peace and blessings

NAM

2 thoughts on “THANKFUL

  1. Doris, Thank you for your comment. I truly appreciate you taking the time to read and comment on my post. The effects of addiction are indeed devastating and have been in my life as well. I thank God daily for saving me, for bringing me out of the depths of hell which my addictive behaviors brought me to. Recovery is amazing and even though I have had some trouble staying clean I did not and will not give up. I have surrendered because I finally realize that I cannot control my using. I accept this as a fact and the truth is since I have accepted this fact my life has changed for the better. One day at a time. Thank you for sharing and keep up the great work.

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  2. Good morning Nam, I am new at exploring blogs. Yours is one of the first that I have been graced to come across…LOVE the energy and STRENGTH, experience and hope that you share……Honest, open, willing…..THANK YOU…..I am personally witnessing the epidemic expansion of addition/alcoholism in our world and its devastating effects, AND I am also witnessing the expansion of RECOVERY thru things like this blog….I truly understand what it means to be a GRATEFUL recovering alcoholic. What I have learned thru 12 step is miraculous indeed….and it keeps getting better!….Great Love, Doris

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