I ONLY HAVE CONTROL OVER HOW I RESPOND TO THOSE ACTIONS!
Hello and God bless you.
I thank God for everything in my life today. I am truly grateful to be alive and clean. I have been granted another chance at living a life with purpose. I no longer feel the need to be in control. The truth is I was never in control but insanely out of control.
I always thought that I had everything under control when I was active. Wow what a rude awakening. I can remember thinking I was a master manipulator, con man or whatever. Little did I know that I wasn’t. I was a pain in the ass to most, obnoxious to others and just all around fool to everyone. I thank God for opening my eyes.
Today I practice the principals of NA. I live one day at a time, take suggestions, do stepwork and make meetings everyday. I love the way I feel. It wasn’t always this way. I am learning that I have no control over certain situations and no control over other people, their actions or their responses. I do however have control over the way I respond to people and their actions.
I will not use today because someone hurts my feelings. I used to run and get high over the smallest things. Today is different. I am growing and I am proud of myself for how I am handling life on lifes terms. I just recently displayed my growth and actually realize that recovery really doesn’t equal cleantime. It’s sad but I have no control over it so I have given it up to God. I know one thing..
I WILL NOT USE OVER IT.
I guess its true some people are placed in your life just to get you to the next level. Thank you Sara for helping me get there.
Peace and blessings