Good morning and God bless you.
I thank God for everything that is taking place in my life today. I woke feeling energized and ready to have a great day. I have been feeling like this for the last couple of days and I am truly grateful.
Not to long ago I felt just the opposite. I was feeling low, angry, tired and plain miserable. I was using again and I couldn’t stop. My life was spiraling out of control once again.
Being caught up in the grips of addiction is the most horrible feeling and causes me to act the same way I feel. I become a monster with no care or concern for anyone. I keep that up front today. I will not allow the lies to tell me anything different. When I’m using, I am losing. Period.
Being in recovery I feel great. The love and hope that I have been experiencing has helped me to finally realize that this way, the NA way, is the best way for me. I have come to terms with this and truly, truly believe that I cannot and will not make it if I decide to stray away from the fellowship.
I have finally come to believe that a power greater than myself could restore me to sanity. That I can actually live a somewhat normal life. That drugs do not make me feel better but worse. That I can make it if I stay.
I will work on creating a new network of positive people who can help me and guide me towards that goal. I have made a commitment to myself and to God and I have been working hard at keeping that commitment. I know there is a better life for me and I will live that life one day at a time.
Peace and blessings