October 25, 2012
Good morning and God bless you.
God woke me up today and I am grateful. I am feeling really good even though I have not slept more than 4-5 hours each night this week. I am not complaining because as I said I am grateful. I am clean, healthy, have a job to go to and a program in my life. I am stoked because I am feeling like I am finally ready to let go of the past, focus on what needs to be done today and my faith is growing. I am making meetings and finally molding my life around making meetings. Just for today it is working just like people in the rooms said it would. I feel at peace and its all due to the grace of my higher power.
I feel I am ready to move on. I am truly sick and tired of the way I have been living and I know that there is a better way. God is guiding me and I am living his will for me and not my own. I know this is a process and not a race. I will remember to take it one day or even one minute at a time. Slow and steady is how I am rolling.
I am eager to make meetings and look forward to making 90 in 90. I have 9 days clean and sober. From Stuggle to Strength is my motto from here on out. Gratitude fills my Attitude. I will learn to Love and Forgive myself and others. I truly believe that now is my season. I will end all old, unhealthy relationships with people who are not moving in the same direction as me. People who I thought were my friends but I have come to realize don’t give a shit about me are dead and stinking. They do not have my best interest at heart and we have nothing in common other than drugs. Those relations have run there course and their season in my life is officially OVER.
BYE BYE HATERS.
I will open myself to making new friends. I have issues with meeting new people but I am willing to work through them. I need help in this area and will seek the help I need. Time to grow up establish healthy relationships, face my fears, change negative behaviors to positive ones and learn how to live life.
God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference.
Peace and blessings