October 28, 2012
Hello and God bless you.
I thank God for sending the Angels to guide and protect me today. I am grateful that through his power I am staying on the path. I am doing the work necessary to maintain and survive while continuing to live his will for me.
I went to my first NA meeting in my hometown of Brooklyn, NY this morning and I am so glad that I did. It was a anniversary celebration and it was awesome. I was able to get in touch with some feelings and relate like never before. I will be making this meeting every Sunday from here on out. I really enjoyed the speakers they really carried the message and I can say that I came out of that meeting feeling great.
One thing that really stuck out was one brother who shared about how mammals always travel in herds, packs, flocks etc. And how whenever one leaves the herd and goes his own way how something bad always happens. Like the birds that fly South and one bird decides he wants to fly North but dies because it gets cold and lonely. Then he connected it to addicts we travel in groups and whenever we decide to do things our way and go at it alone how we relapse. WE LEFT THE HERD (GROUP). It was awesome. I made the connection immediately.
Everytime I decide to put my wants ahead of my need for meetings I am leaving the HERD. And relapse is inevitable. It has happened 4 times already so I know now that it is true. I cannot recover successfully without making meetings and staying connected. I am grateful God woke me up to make that meeting. Thank you Jesus. Amen.
On another note my second choice for a meeting today was cancelled due to Hurricane Sandy. I can remember in my active addiction coming out in hurricanes, snow storms whatever to get my drugs. I was upset that the meeting was cancelled when the weather was nowhere near dangerous. What happened to no matter what.
Not only has the meeting been cancelled but NYC is under a severe storm watch, certain areas are under mandatory evacuation and the subway system is being shutdown at 7 pm. This is looking like a very serious storm for us.
I will be praying for all who live close to the coast line. May God bless us all. I will keep you posted.
Peace and blessings