GUILT


August 1

Freedom from guilt

Our addiction enslaved us. We were prisoners of our own mind and were condemned by our own guilt.

Basic Text, p. 7

Hello and God Bless You.

I have been a prisoner of my addiction for a long time and as a direct result of this I also became a prisoner of the city and then of the state of NY. I have resentment, shame, guilt, embarrassment and a host of other feelings that have kept me enslaved for years.

I used to think (sometimes still do) that I wasn’t worthy of being happy or loved or deserving of a good life. My mind has a way of killing my dreams before they can become more than a thought. Then I believe the lies and use my past as proof that I truly am useless.

It’s been a long hard trail. Lots of UPS and DOWNS. More downs than ups and a shitload of guilt to go along with it. I did things that I am not proud of on my journey but felt it necessary at the time. I have regrets and I need to learn how to let go and move on.

GET OVER IT AND GET ON WITH IT..

I am in the process of changing my life and I have to give myself a break. Time to live life on lifes terms. One day at a time I will recover from the damage I have done to myself. As long as I continue on this road God will show me how to live. I truly believe that.

Peace and blessings

NAM

2 thoughts on “GUILT

  1. You see its true when they say you are not alone. I am sorry it took me so long to respond to your post. I know exactly what you are going through we are in this together Kelly. You can talk to me anytime, we can get through this together. Email me or join my group on FB called The Struggle..friend me on FB Nam Daily Struggle.

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