GUILT

August 1

Freedom from guilt

Our addiction enslaved us. We were prisoners of our own mind and were condemned by our own guilt.

Basic Text, p. 7

Hello and God Bless You.

I have been a prisoner of my addiction for a long time and as a direct result of this I also became a prisoner of the city and then of the state of NY. I have resentment, shame, guilt, embarrassment and a host of other feelings that have kept me enslaved for years.

I used to think (sometimes still do) that I wasn’t worthy of being happy or loved or deserving of a good life. My mind has a way of killing my dreams before they can become more than a thought. Then I believe the lies and use my past as proof that I truly am useless.

It’s been a long hard trail. Lots of UPS and DOWNS. More downs than ups and a shitload of guilt to go along with it. I did things that I am not proud of on my journey but felt it necessary at the time. I have regrets and I need to learn how to let go and move on.

GET OVER IT AND GET ON WITH IT..

I am in the process of changing my life and I have to give myself a break. Time to live life on lifes terms. One day at a time I will recover from the damage I have done to myself. As long as I continue on this road God will show me how to live. I truly believe that.

Peace and blessings

NAM