Before we got clean, most of our actions were guided by impulse. Today, we are not locked into this type of thinking.
Basic Text, p. 90
Just for today:
I will use the principles of the Twelve Steps to make healthy decisions. I will ask my Higher Power for the strength to act on those decisions.
Good morning and God bless you.
Decisions have consequences. That is a lesson that I seem to have to keep learning over and over again. I have always been a hard headed, know it all or at least I’ve always thought I knew it all. As a child I didn’t like being told what to do, and as a teen I really didn’t like being told what to do, so I made a decision to do what I wanted to do. So of course this way of thinking applied as a adult as well.
Unfortunately for me I still to this day have a problem with being told what to do. You would think that by now I would have learned a thing or two about accepting suggestions and listening to others, especially when I know they are right or at least they have my best interest in mind. Thinking back to all the warnings and advice I was given as a child that all started to make sense and turn out to be true later in life, I should know better.
I guess it all boils down to who do I trust myself or them. Lol. My best thinking is what got me into this mess in the first place right. I know, I know. Insanity runs pretty doggone deep my friends.
I have been set into a mold of bad decision making for so long that sometimes I won’t even make a decision at all. I just let things fall where they may. My thought process scares me at times because I know right from wrong and will choose wrong because its easy or comfortable. I am not very disciplined and I am not consistent when it comes to making healthy decisions. I know this is an area that I really need to get better at. Change is scary but necessary when it comes to this character defect.
My disease plays on the fact that I’m not strong in positive thinking. I know that acting off impulse is my addictive behavior and I make the decision to keep allowing the negative thoughts to turn into negative actions. I know I am not crazy although my actions might contradict that statement. I am learning that I have no control and need to learn how to let go of the old and embrace the new.
I am willing to change I am just struggling with carrying it out.
It’s time to make better choices. It’s time to make better decisions. It’s time.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can
And the Wisdom to know the difference.
Peace and blessings friends.