Hello and God Bless You.
I went to a meeting this morning and it was a Anniversary. A member was celebrating 19 years clean. It was a real eye opener. One thing I heard that really stuck out was a member who shared and said ain’t nothing worse than using, not death, not losing your job nothing. And he also said that you never have to use again and won’t as long as you follow this way of living.
That has been a problem for me, following the NA way. I start off really well, doing the work, making meetings, sharing with others and after a while fall back into my normal laziness. I stop making meetings and well you know the rest.
I have to start putting recovery first and foremost. I have to stop with the excuses of why u haven’t made a meeting or won’t be able to make a meeting. I have to dump all the pain and misery and open myself up. Put down the fear and gain courage. I have to show up so I can grow up. I love my homegroup they truly are the best bunch of people in the world. Its my time, I can feel it.
This is my season of grace. God has a better plan for my life and its high time I step into it.