FEAR OF CHANGE


Many of us cling to our fears, doubts, self-loathing, or hatred because there is a certain distorted security in familiar pain. It seems safer to embrace what we know than to let go of it for the unknown.
Basic Text,

Just for today:

I will release the old, embrace the new, and grow.

Hello and God Bless You.

When I read this Just For Today I couldn’t help but say WOW. I related to it like never before. It struck a cord that rang true in my life for a very long time. I still fear doing new things and the old familiar pain sometimes is more comfortable than the new uncertainty of change. Crazy ain’t it. I don’t know about you but when I say it, it just sounds crazy.

But as crazy as it sounds that’s my life. I cannot speak for anyone else my life is crazy at times and my thinking is the reason for the insanity.
I have trouble with processing my thoughts at times and its scary. I know right from wrong and there are times that wrong just seems so right and I talk myself right into doing it.

Tonight is different tonight I had a urge sneak up on me, a very strong persistent urge but I was able to fight it off. I have to continue to deny these urges. I am proud of myself for winning this round. I know the urges will continue to haunt me but if I can hold them off I know they will soon become less urgent and I will be able to think of other things.

I am fighting for change. It’s not easy but I am taking it a minute at a time like I’ve been taught and its working. Thank God for the knowledge I have gained in the rooms. Slow and steady and I can and will make change become a reality.

Peace and blessings

NAM

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