110 DAYS CLEAN
The good times can also be a trap; the danger is that we may forget that our first priority is to stay clean.
Basic Text, p. 43
Just for today:
Im grateful for the good times, but Ive not forgotten from where Ive come. Today, my first priority is staying clean and growing in my recovery.
Hello and God Bless You.
Priorities is a word that meant nothing to me before I came to NA. Even after I got a little clean time I still didn’t realize the importance of priorities. When I was using, using was my priority. It was my commitment. It was my job, it was my girlfriend, it was my life.
Everything I did revolved around it, and I wouldn’t let anything interupt that process. I didn’t care if I had to miss birthdays, holidays, school, work or sleep for that matter. I wouldn’t let you or anyone else stop me from enjoying my high. I didn’t see that I wasn’t really enjoying it anymore that it had went from being fun to being necessary to being habit. I mean it just became natural like breathing. Everything I did or didn’t do was linked in one way or another to my using. And at first I had no desire to stop then I had no control and couldn’t stop.
Attending meetings has taught me a thing or two. One of the things is that when I stop making meetings I stop growing. I stop moving forward and I start going backwards. I revert back to my old attitudes and behaviors and I am not talking over time I’m talking almost immediately.
In no time at all I can loose what I choose not to use.
The program has taught me that I have to put my recovery first. I have to make meetings and stay connected. I have to continue to monitor my attitudes and behaviors and change my negative patterns. I have to call my sponsor and my network. I have to continue to share my hurt, pain my joys and sorrows. I have to make staying clean my first priority. If I stay in the here and now and continue to work the program I have a better chance of surviving.
If I don’t THEN ALL BETS ARE OFF.
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