A PROCESS NOT A CONTEST


107 DAYS CLEAN

This program has become a part of me…. I understand more clearly the things that are happening in my life today. I no longer fight the process.<
Basic Text, p. 127

Just for today:

Life is a process; the Twelve Steps are the key. Today, I will use the steps to participate in that process, understanding and enjoying myself and my recovery.

Hello and God Bless You

I am thankful to my higher power God for guiding me to NA. For too long I have struggled with addiction and negativity. I was unaware of the possibilities that awaited me. I was a lost soul just drifting on the sea of misery. I didn’t think I would ever be able to stop using so I continued to self destruct day by day. I didn’t understand what was happening to me and I had no control and didn’t have the ability to do anything about it. Looking back it was a sad, lonely existence. It took some bumps in the road, setbacks and disappointments but I am finally beginning to see some light at the end of the tunnel.

Recovery doesn’t happen over night and I am never going to be totally cured. I have a lifelong battle ahead of me but because I am no longer fighting the process recovery is starting to become just a little easier. I am beginning to feel better about my life. I have hope for a future, and for a family. All I have to do is continue on this road. Recovery is not a race, its not a contest, it is a process. I didn’t come into the rooms totally honest, open minded or willing after all I have been self destructing for years. I have formed bad habits and negative attitudes and behaviors. I have done a lot of damage to my thought process and its gonna take some time to correct all of the bad habits and behaviors. It is a process I am willing to go through to get to where I want to be. The longer I stay in this process the more I am beginning to understand the things that I go through, the feelings, the thoughts, the attitudes all the stuff that used to run me to get high. Today with the help of God, the fellowship and my network I am making progress. I can see changes in me. I feel the changes in me. My thought process has changed I actually think before I speak and act. I never used to do that. I know the program works.

For me its work the Steps or die. It’s just that simple.

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Peace and Blessings

NAM

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