106 DAYS CLEAN
There will be times, however, when we really feel like using. We want to run, and we feel lousy. We need to be reminded of where we came from and that it will be worse this time. This is when we need the program the most.
Basic Text, p. 81
Just for today:
I thank my Higher Power for the gift of NA. I know that relapse is not the way out. Whatever challenges I face, I will face them with the God of my understanding.
Hello and God Bless You.
Relapse is not a requirement but it is a reality. Relapse is a part of my story. It is a part of my past and I am not gonna let it be a part of my future. Now I am not a psychic and I cannot predict the future but I can say that if I keep vigilant by working the steps, reading the literature, sharing my experience, strength and hope, continue giving back what was so freely given to me and keep monitoring my attitudes and behaviors and making the necessary changes and do this one day at a time relapse will not be a part of my life just for today. I know all to well what happens when there are holes in my program. I cannot afford to get comfortable or relaxed. That opens the door for me to start sliding down that slippery slope of relapse.
I have learned so much about myself this past 14 months I have been in recovery. I am learning my triggers and the signs that I am slipping. I am learning how to respond positively to situations. I am learning to have compassion and empathy for people. I am learning how to get out of my own way and be open to change. I am learning how to deal with my feelings good and bad. In the past there was only one solution to every thing good or bad. Today I have choices. I utilize my options and I am happy to say that none of the options include using drugs today.
Gods grace and the fellowship have taught me that RELAPSE IS NOT A REQUIREMENT. I am grateful for that today. Gratitude plays a major part in me staying clean and I am passionate about living a clean life.
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