FEEL LIKE I’M SLIPPING

 79 DAYS CLEAN

We are grateful that we were made so welcome at meetings that we felt comfortable.
Basic Text, p. 83
Just for today: I remember the welcome I was given when I first came to NA. Today, I will express my gratitude by offering a hug to a newcomer.

Hello and God Bless You.

I am grateful that I was welcomed at my first meeting and welcomed back after my relapses. I know  for a fact that if I wasn’t I would not have stayed. I was already doubtful about going and thinking negatively about NA and wasn’t sure about anything. So I came in expecting the worse and was totally shocked at how I was treated. I sat there and heard people talk about their struggles and hurt and pain and people clapped. I was like WTF. Lol. But I have to admit that I am grateful to have been welcomed so warmly and I will never forget that. I love NA and will do anything I can to help the newcomer feel the same way I felt when I came through the doors. WELCOMED

Today I have to admit that lately I have been feeling a little in a funk. I think I am spending way too much time on Facebook and not enough time on my recovery. Even though I am on FB in recovery groups I am consumed by it and I feel like I am slipping. I have to find that balance needed because I love all the groups I am in an want to continue to participate with all the wonderful new friends I have made. I pray to God for the strength to continue to do his will and not mines. As I continue to grow day by day I am getting to know myself better and can spot the signs a little more clearer. I think I might have to fall back from some of the groups that I am in for a little while just to focus more on me and my recovery. I will monitor my feelings and thoughts more carefully in the up coming days and pray on it before I make my final decision.  I love my groups and everyone in them but ultimately I am responsible for my own recovery there for I have to put myself first.

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Peace and Blessings.

NAM