Just for today:
I will open my mind and my heart to believe that God is loving, and trust my loving Higher Power to do for me what I cannot do for myself.
Our understanding of a Higher Power is up to us…. The only suggested guidelines are that this Power be loving, caring, and greater than ourselves.
Basic Text, p. 24
Hello and God Bless You.
Personal recovery depends on NA unity. I have to keep in mind daily that recovery and unity go hand in hand. I remember when I was active wishing for some kind of unity. Whether it was unity at home or unity amongst my friends (YEAH UNITED ADDICTS WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING RIGHT) Anyway I always wanted to belong to something other than gangs where people would stick up for each other and do things together and have common ground. Needless to say I never found what I was looking for. All I ever got was slick talkin, cut throat, back stabbing, lying, cheating well you get the picture. So I found myself by myself. That’s how I lived for years. Slowly but surely I was all alone spiraling out of control with nobody to talk to and nobody to care. Then I didn’t care anymore either and I wanted out. I didn’t want to live anymore in my lonely world. I was ready to kill myself and my addiction couldn’t have been happier. It thought it had won. I was ready to scratch another notch in its belt.
God stepped in and said hold on addiction not so fast he is mines and he is far from finished. God gave me a way out. He put the thought of NA in my head and I found my way out of the hell hole which was my life.
I came to the rooms and I was done. I was beat down. Tore up from the floor up. I needed relief and found it in NA. The love and unity that I experienced was something that I had never knew and it was uncomfortable. I went to meetings got a little clean time but wasn’t doing any work on myself. You know what happened because I keep my relapses up front. It took a couple of bumps on the head but I have arrived.
I am now in it to win it. I know that I cannot do this alone. I know that I need each and every one of you if I am to maintain my sobriety. I know that this is a WE program. Although I am still a bit self centered I am learning day by day to put others ahead of myself. It’s not easy, I know that change is a process and it won’t happen over night. But I also know that as long as I am aware of the behavior and practice changing it I will become less self centered. I give it to God and he guides me through.
Unity is such a wonderful thing.
I finally found somewhere where I belong. Thank God I am not alone anymore.
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