50 DAYS CLEAN
Just for today: Ive recovered something I never had, something I never imagined possible: the life of a recovering addict. Thank you, Higher Power, in more than words can say.
Narcotics Anonymous offers addicts a program of recovery that is more than just a life without drugs. Not only is this way of life better than the hell we lived, it is better than any life that we have ever known.
Basic Text, p. 107
Hello and God Bless You. I want to start off by saying I FEEL GREAT TODAY.. Although I woke up at 4am and could not go back to sleep. I hate when that happens don’t you? Anyway I went online to 12 Step Planet Group page and started posting. Then I went to a 9am meeting and from there I went to work. I have to admit that although I should be tired, when I start my day off with a meeting (which I do 5 days a week) I always feel good. Morning meetings are the best because it sets the tone for my day. I wake up and thank God for waking me and pray for strength and courage. Prayer along with my daily dose of NA gets my day off to a nice start. I know that none of this would be possible without my Higher Power. When I was using my life was a mess. Unorganized, chaotic, just full of drama. Today having 50 days back I can see and feel a major difference. I love the way its going down right now. I am so grateful to have some structure in my life, a sense of direction and purpose. Even if I have a difficult part of my day it is still better than it was in my active addiction. Now don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments. But today I play my tapes all the way through. I fast forward past the so called good times so I can see the misery and keep that up front. My faith in God is growing stronger everyday and I wouldn’t want it any other way. I love my home group, my online home group, my sponsor and all my recovering friends online and in person. I would not be where I am today if not for all of you. Today I love my life. Last year this time I wanted to kill myself. Change is scary but its oh so rewarding. Thank you all for being a part of my new life. Thank you for reading today’s blog post. As always feel free to comment below, join my blog or sign up for email notifications. Peace and Blessings. NAM Please checkout http://www.12stepplanet.com And join us on Facebook 12stepplanet the group. Thank you for your support.