CHANGE


32 DAYS CLEAN

Just for today: I want to change. By working the steps, I will counter fear and denial and find the acceptance needed to change.

Hello and God Bless.

I think the just for today said it all. I want to change. But the fact is change is hard. It is a everyday battle to correct negative attitudes and behaviors and replace them with positive ones.

I will work the steps as best I can. I am currently back on Step1 and am not rushing through it. I am taking my time so I can take it internally. I have a lot of work to do because of all the years of neglecting myself. I am willing to face this challenge.

I will continue to reach out for help and I will offer help as well. I have noticed some change in my life and I will continue to striving to become a better person. I pray for knowledge of Gods will for me and the power to carry it out.

I know that change doesn’t happen over night and will take it One Day At A Time.

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Peace and Blessings.

NAM

2 thoughts on “CHANGE

  1. You are very welcome Amy. Thank you for your prayers and honesty too. I am grateful that my post are being read and someone can relate to them. I always appreciate your response. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too.

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  2. Thanks so much (((((((Eric))))))
    I will be going up to visit my oldest son, Matthew, Saturday and possibly Sunday as well. It is difficult for me to want to go visit him at the CMF because, there are so many people there. I suffer from PTSD, and being out and around a lot of people is really hard. I want to visit him, yet I wish it could be in a building, with just him and me and his DAD and brother. So today during my mtg with my sponsor, I really poured my heart out about the difficulty I face every time I go there. I hope to be supportive, loving, accepting and most of all, happy. Often times when I go there, I let him talk with his DAD and Brother, and I sit and read. It's a way of isolating myself. Matthew will talk to me, ask me questions, share things with me. He says, “MOM, however you can make it to visit me, or even if you have to stay home, and write me, I accept that about you, and I love you.” Of course that made me cry. LOL!!! It's Christmas and I don't want to miss out on seeing him. SOOOOOO…I am praying for GOD/my HP to help me make the decision to go after what is most valuable to me, hopefully that is not staying home to protect myself, but making the trip to give Matthew a hug and a smile and a kiss on his cheek! After my last visit, I ended up getting really sick in my lungs and had a fever for 2 1/2 days. That was Thanksgiving Day. That is why I am considering being brave and making the trip twice this weekend to see him. It's been a month already!
    Thanks again, Sweet Eric. You inspire me with your open and honest heart and mind. Taking it one day at a time and even one moment at a time is quite acceptable considering how we got where we are today : ) Prayers for you!
    Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, GOD's LOVE, PEACE and much JOY to you and yours. May GOD BLESS YOU as He continues to make YOU a BLESSING to others!
    Amy

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