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STUCK IN A FUNK
Have you ever felt like your stuck? Well that’s how I’m feeling today. I don’t know why but I feel like I should be progressing more than I am. I mean I am doing everything that I should be doing. I read my literature, basic text, make meetings, make phone calls and text people. Plus I’m a member of several online recovery communities and I blog. But I still feel like something is missing. I think its my disease playing tricks on me. I don’t know what more I can do. I’ve been feeling like this for a couple of days now and I hope this feeling passes soon. I don’t want to get complacent and then start going backwards. I’m gonna post this and see if I can get some feedback. I really hope that this funky feeling is temporary. It’s starting to depress me.
KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE
I know that this is a sign. It’s one of my triggers the beginning stage anyway. I start to feel like I’m not progressing then my disease starts in with the negative talk. You see thanks to my sponsor, the rooms and the literature I am getting better at noticing when my triggers begin instead of acting off the feelings I can identify them, so I know I am growing regardless of how I feel. If I just hold on and think about it I can see the pattern. For a long time I didn’t know this about myself and kept doing what was comfortable at the time..getting high to mask the pain. Now that I am more aware I have a fighting chance.
IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT.
I truly believe that phrase. If you use the tools that you have gained in NA you can survive anything. I remember that its just a feeling and it will pass and the funky feeling is starting to subside just by me reaching out to others in recovery. God is good. I am learning new things, I have faith in my higher power, I have a strong network who help me on a daily basis and a sponsor. I am feeling much better.
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GOOD NIGHT AN GOD BLESS.