God give me the courage and strength to carry on. I thank God for waking me up every morning and I ask for his guidance and knowledge of his will for me and the power to carry it out.
FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL
FUCK EVERYTHING AND RUN
I am all to familiar with fear. I have lived my whole life in fear of one thing or another. Fear of change, fear of success, fear of being lonely, fear of not being liked, fear of people and in the end fear of myself. I have never been one to face my fears in fact I always did the opposite. Whenever things got tough I ran, I quit, I gave up, I dropped everything. For as long as I can remember I have been like that. I would always justify why I quit something with I have a short attention span and I get bored or that class was too slow other people just wasnt getting it that was my excuse.
Excuse after excuse when in reality it was fear. I can admit that I am still fearful today. I have a fear of not being able to stay clean. This is new territory for me and sometime I think I cannot do it. I also know that that’s my disease talking. Sneaky son of a gun. Today I am learning to replace those negative thoughts with positive thoughts. I will not allow my disease to sabotage my recovery anymore. I pray for strength and courage all throughout the day and night. I will not let fear run my life anymore. Time to F- Face E- Everything A- And R- Recover. Thank you for reading today’s blog post. I wish everyone a happy, healthy and safe weekend.
Peace and blessings.