DAY SEVEN

Good morning,
I am up and ready to start my day. I am excited because today is my home groups 27th anniversary. I love my home group and can’t wait to participate and do service. To give back. My home group, especially my sponsor has helped save my life. When I was lost in my addiction my sponsor never turned his back on me and when I came back my home group welcomed me back and made me feel that I was still a part of. I was overwhelmed. Unconditional love is a powerful thing and I am so grateful.
I thank God for waking me up this morning. I pray for knowledge of his will for me, strength and courage to carry it out. I love my God and am grateful for the life he has planned for me.
I am here at my home group helping to set up for the anniversary and waiting for the meeting to start. I feel so good this morning I can’t put it into words. Gratitude in my attitude. It’s so good to see everyone here and having a good time. Food, Fun and Fellowship that’s what I’m talking about.
Alright the meeting part of the celebration is over, now its time to help serve the food. Overall it was a success. I am grateful to be a part of something so much bigger than I could ever imagined. The love that was in that room was amazing. The food was great too. I LOVE NA, ESPECIALLY MY HOME GROUP. All I can say is thank you for letting me be a part of. I feel like I finally belong.
Gratitude for the fellowship and all the love I received all week along with my new found faith in my higher power God helped me make it through this holiday clean. Let’s me know I don’t have to ever use again. I feel that. I believe that.
Well now I’m at work taking it easy. Still high from this mornings festivities. Nothing will steal my thunder. Poof be gone negativity.

DAY SIX

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

I want to wish everyone a Happy and Healthy Thanksgiving. I plan on making a few meetings today because the holidays have always been a reason to use. I thank God for waking me up this morning. I pray for strength, courage and knowledge of his will so I can carry out and live his will and not mine.

I am at a marathon meeting and will stay here the majority of the day. Unfortunately I am not with my family today guilt, embarrassment and shame are keeping me away. I know that they think I’m probably using somewhere but that’s ok today. I am more worried about getting my life together right now.

Good meeting this first one was about egos. I shared about how my ego (Kazoo) keeps me thinking I am still some big time somebody and how that leads me to believe that I can do this by myself and I don’t need to be in the rooms. All bullshit.

I stayed at the marathon meeting for 6 hours. There was some terrific topics.
Ego
Self Acceptance
Relationships in Recovery
Serenity
Honesty, Open mindedness and Willingness I really enjoyed all of the meetings got to eat some great food, talk to people, see friends I haven’t seen in awhile. I am so grateful that there is a place to go on the holidays.

This was the first Thanksgiving that I was clean in 30 years. I was scared I wouldn’t be able to maintain but thanks to God, NA and the people in the fellowship I can say today I am clean 6 days. I am truly grateful and thankful.

Tomorrow is my home groups 27 year anniversary. I am glad to be able to do service for my home group. I am going to help set up and help serve food. I am happy to give back what was so freely given to me. I love my higher power God and my home group.

I thank God for guiding me, giving me the strength and courage to make it through the holiday and for getting me home safe and clean. Have a great night. Until tomorrow peace.

JUST FOR TODAY…I DON’T GET HIGH, I IDENTIFY.