OBSESSION


MY CURRENT STATE OF MIND IS CLOUDED. I’M AM UNABLE TO THINK CLEARLY DUE TO THE FACT THAT I AM OBSESSED WITH THOUGHTS OF USING. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THE END RESULT. THAT’S THE CRAZY PART, KNOWING WHAT YOU KNOW AND DOING IT ANYWAY. TALK ABOUT INSANITY. SMH. I FEEL LIKE I DON’T HAVE ANY CONTROL AT ALL. IT’S LIKE ONCE THE THOUGHT POPS INTO MY HEAD I CAN’T GET RID OF IT. MY ACTIONS START TO REVOLVE AROUND THE THOUGHT. CRAZY AIN’T IT. BRB.
AIGHT NOW LET’S TALK ABOUT INSANITY CHECK THIS OUT. I CAME HOME FROM WORK AND GOT ME A TASTE DUDE DIDN’T HAVE ANYMORE SO I SAID FUCK IT 1 WILL DO AN HOUR LATER I’M CALLING EVERYBODY I KNOW TRYING TO GET ME ANOTHER 1. I’M RIDING AROUND LITERALLY LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WHO GOT SOMETHING. NOW I’M STANDING HERE WAITING LOOKING LIKE A FUCKIN FOOL. I SWEAR THE SHIT I GO THROUGH TO FEED THIS MONSTER. SMH…GOD HELP ME TO GAIN CONTROL OVER MY THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS AND HELP ME GET BACK INTO THE ROOMS OF NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS..IN JESUS NAME I PRAY. AMEN.

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